Surviving to Thriving

The saddness and fear, layered with gut wrenching physical pain, was like nothing I had ever experienced. Not only was I living in my own suffering, I was also holding my children's grief.  At the time, it seemed impossible to find a way out of the darkness. 

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Traumatic loss takes you down a dark and scary path.  At times you think you are supposed to run up the path as fast as you can so you can reach the "end"; other times you want to take a rocky side trail because it has to be better than the path you are on; frequently, you want to hide in a hole; and often others are telling you the path has already ended or you should just go home.   

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I can honestly say, none of these approaches work. I needed to take each step on the path thoughfully; literally feeling my way, one step at a time, breathing, moving, slowing way down, and taking moments of stillness along the way.

I want to raise my children to honor their feelings, to breathe through stress and anxiety, to trust themselves, to be openminded, brave, kind, creative, and nurture positive relationships.  I want them to grow and bloom by embracing the challenges they are facing. I want them to be kind, amazing humans who embody their full authentic selves.  This perspectve on parenting laucnhed me into the next chapter of my life. Instinctively, I knew what I needed to do next in my life.  I needed to trust it.

I gave myself tremendous grace, stepped boldly along this strange unknown path of grief, loss, and dramatic changes; felt all the feelings (saddness, anger, frustration, overwhelm, anxiety, and confusion

to name a few), and opened my mind to what it means to embrace my life and who I need and want to be. I walked right into the fire, with all my saddness and fear.

I embodied my inner warrior, and trusted I was on the right path for me and my children. Then, another interesting thing started to happen. I started to feel moments of true joy, happiness; even, peacefullness, safety, comfort, and connection with others, while also experiencing fear and pain.  The more I felt, the more I healed. The more I tuned into what my body, mind, and soul needed, the more I healed.  The more I consciously connected with other humans, the more I healed. The more I healed, the more my girls blossomed. 

Today, the girls and I are living a peaceful life full of kaleidoscopic beauty. Often life is messy and hard, but we always find our way to gratitude and wonder.   We are still walking on the path of grief, and always will be, but it looks much different these days. 

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As I continue to deeply listen, feel and embody sensations in my body, breathe, eat and connect mindfully, and move my body with yoga and dance; I know that my body and brain are strong and healthy. I know that if I keep going, keep trying, keep exploring, and keep nurturing joy, great things will happen for me and my family. With each day, I let go of more fear and worry about the past and future. I am able to live a more present, conscious, mindful existance here on this. plant.. I feel the shift from being in survival mode to living in a thriving mindset. 

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I believe humans have unlimited potential to heal deep pain, build resilience, and nurture a conscious life full of happiness.  My experiences through trauma, loss, anxiety, and grief, along with my training and expertise in a diversity of holistic health modalities, brought me to a pivotal point on my journey.  My vision is for all humans live beautiful lives, amidst the messiness, where they feel emotionally safe, empowered, and joyful inside and out!  

I will coach, teach, and support you to breathe, feel, grow, and embody the most beautiful expresssion of yourself.  If you give love, patience,and compassion to

yourself, your experiences, and your journey, 

anything is possible.